Tarot Card Reading from Kisses & Chaos

Kisses & Chaos Single Tarot Card Reading January can be a bit hectic with all the momentum of doing EVERYTHING we envisioned for ourselves at the end of 2014 all at once. I’ve definitely been feeling a little bit like a hamster in a running wheel trying to keep up with everything I need to do and everything new that I’m trying to make work. A great way to counteract this is with more fun new things! No but really, a little outside perspective and clarity can help you regain your composure.

I’m also all about trying new things and one of my driving feelings that I’m trying to bring into the present moment is to feel magical; so really nothing makes more sense than having my first tarot reading done. Luckily I was in possession of a discount voucher for a single tarot card reading from Kisses and Chaos, which I received in my goodie bag from the Urban Retreat I attended last month.

Kisses & Chaos Tarot Readings

Kisses & Chaos

Getting onto the Kisses and Chaos website is already an experience with all of the weird and wonderful work by the lovely Alli Woods Frederick to check out. Among a number of things, Alli is an intuitive, photographer, artist, and blogger. And among her products are Single Card, Three Card, and Year At A Glance, an yearly subscription tarot card readings. Perfect for a taster experience, I grabbed my coupon code and sent away for my blind single card reading. Generally, Alli gets back to you with your beautifully laid out results in 2 business days, but it can take a bit longer over busy periods (like the new year).

Kisses and Chaos sells blind tarot readings which means that your reading is done without them having any information about you. You don’t get to ask any questions, request that the reading be about a certain area of your life, or anything. “What? Why?!” you say. The idea is that you’ve asked the universe to give you feedback on your life, and the reading you receive is the universe sending you some vibes, via Alli and the internet. More importantly, you get the message that you need to hear, rather than the message you want to hear.

My Reading

Kisses & haos Tarot Reading

The style of the reading is attractively laid out in a PDF. It’s all very easy to follow. Having never done this before I wasn’t exactly sure what to expect. I received an idea of what the card means and Alli’s interpretations on how that card would relate to my life. As with any intuitive work, there were some pieces of information that I didn’t find very well suited to me, but I’m trying to keep an open mind as to how the insights I received may have different reverberations than implied. After all, the idea is supposed to be that your reading provides what you NEED to hear, so sometimes you just need to take a little time for it to sink in and make sense. There is definitely something magical about feeling like someone has connected to your energy from thousands of miles away.

I was also moved by how sincere and thorough my reading was. You can see that Alli takes her time to really get in touch with her intuition and your energy. She clearly gives even a single card reading her full attention. I don’t know that I’m ready to go in for a monthly subscription yet, but I’d definitely be interested in pulling a card from fate’s clenched fist again some time in the future.

Mission totally accomplished of feeling a little more magical in my everyday, and plucking some wisdom and perspective from the universe.

Discount Voucher!

If you’d like to see what the cards hold for you, I have a little sumthin’-sumthin’ that you’ll like! You can use my discount code created especially for you lovely people to get a deal on your very own Kisses & Chaos tarot reading. Just hop over to the website, and use the code below when purchasing ANY of their tarot reading services. That’s right you have your pick of the lot. There are only a limited number of yearly subscriptions left, so don’t delay if that’s what you’re drawn to. You have until midnight on Valentine’s Day to show yourself some love and take advantage of this gracious offer.

Kisses & Chaos Love, Letty Voucher

What do you think of tarot readings? Have you had any interesting experiences? Are you keen to get your own Kisses & Chaos reading done? I would love to know!

Love, Magic, & Perspective,

Colette xx

Photos: All images in this post are © Alli Woods Frederick

Full Moon Urban Retreat

 

Sarah & Jayne Full Moon Urban Retreat

For a while now I’ve been feeling out of touch with myself. One way or another, we can all find ourselves moving mindlessly through our days instead of actively living. I for one don’t have anything amazing come my way during these phases and even the happiest occasions aren’t as bright as they could have been.

It’s hard to give yourself the attention you need when your schedule and responsibilities get extra hectic. I haven’t been doing any daily practices or getting time to work on the things that make my heart sing. The result has been a very stressed and anxiety ridden form of myself. I realized that as the year was coming to an end, I was constantly in a panic and confused about what my goals are and what the point is to the humdrum rhythm of my life.

When I saw that my good friend Sarah from The Laughing Medusa was putting on a retreat with Jayne from She Is The Revolution, I instantly knew it was exactly what I needed. The Full Moon Urban Retreat focused on desire by both reflecting on your past year and channelling your intentions for the year ahead. Despite being busy with a million looming deadlines, I committed to going to London for Saturday, December 6th to participate in the retreat. And I’m SO GLAD that I did!

The Full Moon Urban Retreat coincided with Gemini full moon, a perfect time for releasing the past year and invoking new intentions. It was a wonderful day filled with healthy food, guided self-reflection, qoya, meditation, and an opportunity to connect with other strong, amazing women.

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What a beautiful and enriching experience! Sarah, Jayne, and their wonderful volunteers greeted us with hugs and gave everyone a chance to settle into the space with hot tea and fresh nibbles. The day more formally began with introductions from our goddess leaders and an “om” meditation, instantly unifying 40 brilliant ladies and setting a warm tone for the rest of the day.

There were so many moments from the day that I am still continually feeling grateful for. Both during the guided exercises and during the chances we got to mingle with the goddesses we were sharing our experiences with.

One of the highlights for me was definitely discovering my love for qoya. I had never experienced qoya before, not surprisingly as Jayne is the only teacher in the UK. However, I had heard about it and thought it was very intriguing. Well let me tell you, from the moment our DJ-slash-qoya-goddess-Jayne hit play and we started to move, I knew that qoya is what my life has been missing. I am sure you will hear a lot more about this in the coming days, as I am now officially obsessed and am seriously scheming to make qoya a more permanent fixture in my life. Anyway, Jayne was amazing at helping us move through our emotions using qoya, everyone in the room felt a weight off their shoulders after the experience. If you’d like to know more about qoya visit her blog.

Qoya at Full Moon Urban Retreat

After a gorgeously nutritious lunch, Sarah led us through a “spring cleaning” exercise that helped us clear our cobwebs and explore our inner feelings about our personal desires.

I’ve never done this kind of work with other people. Up until this retreat, chatting with my girlfriends over a glass of wine was the closest I ever got to exploring my inner desires among other people. Our focus was desire in its pure and simple form. For 15 minutes we each used another woman who we’d never really spoken to to sound our inner thoughts and findings off of – without judgment and without comment. I’m pretty positive that everyone in the room learned something new about them selves, or finally vocalized a feeling they’ve been harbouring. It was another one of the most magical moments of the day for me. There is something very powerful and transformative about watching another person become open and vulnerable in front to you. I am in love with engaging in this kind of human authenticity because it’s so beautiful. It is a reminder that we are all connected and can profoundly help each other in simple ways.

Qoya at the Full Moon Urban Retreat 2

The Full Moon Urban Retreat was highly successful and delivered exactly what any goddess soul needs. The event was well sponsored with treats from Rude Health and Teapigs, as well as goody bags filled with bits from Napiers, Crown & Glory, Galaxy Rox Jewellery, Veronica Dearly, Rachel Gale, and Pretty Utopian. Jayne and Sarah did an excellent job of guiding the pack of wise and willing women through a rejuvenating day. I am grateful that I was able to attend and meet so many wonderful people. It was so much fun! Next up, I hope to reconnect with some of the people I met at the retreat and search out communities in Bristol to connect with closer to home.

A retreat isn’t the only way to get clear on your desires and prepare for the new year. During the past few weeks I’ve been continuing to write gratitude lists, reflect on my past year, and prepare my intentions for the year ahead. You can do these things without spending a dime and you’ll feel so much better for it. If you need help or want to have a chat about these things, please don’t hesitate to contact me, I’d love to lend a hand.

To all your desires and dreams coming true,

Colette x

 

All photographs are by Katherine Rothman

The Mean Reds

The Mean RedsI try to be a pretty positive person. I do. I am even frequently referred to as an optimistic and uplifting person. I’m known for my boisterous laughter and smiling face. Honestly, I have a real desire to leave everyone I meet with good vibes, and to help people find truth and light in their lives. That’s part of what I try to accomplish on my blog. But I’ve struggled my whole life with the deepest darkest pit of despair that lives in the centre of my chest. And sometimes I just can’t shake the mean reds when they descend on me.

As I’ve gotten older, and found an amazing partner, I’ve been having a higher ratio of good days to bad. Sometimes I’m able to conjure and collect enough sunshine in my life to leave me on the winning side of my battle for months. But this week I’ve been losing. I feel a constriction around my heart and gut and it’s not going away. I feel on the verge of panic even though absolutely nothing in my life has changed since last week. I feel desperate for something I can’t name, everything is bleak and grey. At least this time I haven’t laid in bed all day. So there’s that. (That’s a positive.)

I used to think that I just got sad a lot. Maybe my sadness was due to being so sensitive. I used to think that everybody else’s problems were a lot worse than mine. I used to think that everything I felt was all my fault. That there was no way I could be depressed. I was just a failure, and a mess, and nothing would ever go right, and it was just because I was such a degenerate and loser. Sometimes I still believe that. I used to think that saying I suffered from depression was a cop out, another piece of proof that I wasn’t worth anyone’s time of day. Not because depression isn’t a real disease, or because I thought sufferers were weak, but rather because I believed that I was so weak I didn’t deserve any sort of legitimate reason for suffering. Somehow my suffering had to be boiled down to something I caused. This all might sound a bit dramatic, and it even feels a bit dramatic at the time. (Which leads to more feelings of guilt and self-loathing.) But this is part of my experience, my lows have often been fraught with a roller-coaster of negative emotions and spiralling dichotomies.

In fact, to be honest, I’m still not sure that I suffer from depression. I have just recently started to consider the idea that it’s possible. The materials that have been cropping up about depression lately, especially surrounding Robin Williams’ death, have made me realize that maybe my thought patterns and experiences when I’m on a low are indicative of depression. And I’m not even sure what to do with this possible revelation. I was hoping it would feel productive and maybe cathartic to write about my mean reds. Maybe someone will read this and feel a connection, like they’ve been here too. And I hope that helps them.

Audrey Hepurn, Breakfast at Tiffany's

I’ve never successfully gotten help from any professionals, and I’m obviously not by any means certified in mental health consulting. Nevertheless, I’ve put together a list of things to try to help you pull through the mean reds. These are techniques I’ve been using this week.

1. Remind yourself that this too shall pass.

“I’ve been through rough patches before, and I’ll get through this one too.” While this reminder doesn’t really make me feel anything at all, I think it’s good practice to remind yourself of practical realities when you’re feeling desperate and irrational. It’s easy to lose touch with reality when things start spinning out of control, and this can work to keep you grounded.

2. Resist shirking responsibilities.

Working from home means my productivity takes a real hit when I feel like shit. I’m distracted, I find it hard to commit to the task at hand, I don’t really care about anything. But, another practical reality is that my deadlines aren’t going anywhere. So even though I may not start my day as early and need to take more or longer breaks, I try to continue to push through. Make lists of what you have to do and schedule things to allow yourself more time than usual to complete tasks.

3. Be social, or at least go outside.

Fresh air, like a good cuppa, makes everything in life a little easier to handle. But besides that, forcing yourself out of the house can help break the cycle of negative thoughts and feelings by interrupting your inner experience. Even going to a coffee shop or grocery shopping by yourself will provide an activity that puts you amongst people, and can help shift your focus. Yesterday, I worked on my laptop in a pub. Today, I’ll meet up with some friends for an hour.

4. Primp.

Spend a little time on your outfit and yourself before you go out. There really is something to say about the affects putting some effort into your appearance before you leave the house can have on your experience. If you go out in the dirty sweats on your floor, you’re not going to feel as confident as if you like the outfit you’re wearing and have put effort into your hair or make-up. Just do whatever it is you need to do to feel more confident in the image you’re about to step out into the world in.

5. Cry, if you need to.

I’m a crier. I need a good dose of tears in my life to keep my emotions in balance. When I’m miserable, I like to watch a movie that’s going to make me cry. It’s a good release for pent up emotion. Sometimes it’s hard to feel anything but a negative cloud when you’re on a low, and a movie might just make you feel something. That said, even if the aim is to cry, pick something with a happy ending! If crying isn’t your thing, good stand-up comedy might be a decent alternative.

6. Exercise & eat right.

A little bit of exercise in the morning, a walk during the day, and a healthy dose of fruits, veggies, and protein. It’s not that hard. When you feel like nothing matters, these small things can keep you from plunging further into the black. Having the nutrients and vitamins you need are imperative to good mental health. Taking a B complex, a multivitamin, and vitamin D in the fall and winter can help you keep the right balance.

7. No binge drinking.

I used to binge drink at times like these, and while I have a few ridiculous stories that pair with these times, I assure you NOTHING good ever comes from it. For one, it’s the opposite of eating right. Your body feels like a landfill for the next day or two and life is always harder with a hangover. But also, it can put you on a bullet train to a complete breakdown. Not good. Avoid at all costs. If you know one glass of wine is going to turn into a bottle, then do yourself a favour and don’t start drinking.

8. Don’t push yourself too hard.

Yes, remaining responsible, being social, primping, and being good to your body can help you pull through your grey days sooner. And yes, anyone who’s suffered like us knows it’s all very hard work. Just don’t push yourself past your limits. Stop and take a breather when you need to. I personally, only did about a third of my yoga routine this morning, and I briefly left the house yesterday so I’m not leaving the house until I meet up with friends tonight. I’m working within my limits until I feel better. The key here is that even though you may not feel like you deserve any leniency, try to remain open to loving yourself and giving yourself what you need to get through this.

Everyone has their own inner demons and personal battles to fight. No matter what issues you are going through, you are strong enough to come out on the other side. Making an effort to stay open to the chance of positive forces and opportunities is most important when we don’t feel up to the task. If things get really bad and you just don’t know what to do, please reach out to someone close to you, or a helpline for support. You are not alone. There are people who experience similar things everyday. There are people who really understand. Don’t give up!

Please let me know if you find any of this helpful or if you have any tips you would like to add to my list. It would be great to know what you guys think.

Tender hearts, and Audrey Hepburn kisses,

Colette xx

Photos – Feature & Top: ohgoshCindy Middle: Breakfast at Tiffany’s

Being Hopeful

Colette Hanson Bristol Balloon Festival

Today I’ve been meditating on hope with the guidance of Deepak Chopra’s words. I love his idea that to throw your faith into hope is to put your faith into yourself. You don’t have to make a big deal about trying to believe in yourself, (which can be difficult for many people). All you have to do is trust that there is good on its way and remember that if you are open to it, you will see that good when it appears and can invite it into your life. By acting in this way, we can learn to believe in ourselves more and be more optimistic.

The more you nurture hope the more optimistic you feel, and being optimistic you move naturally to take the openings and opportunities that come your way. This is very different from feeling uncertain and trapped by circumstances. Hope is like a thread leading out of the maze. It doesn’t get us out, but it is our connection to freedom. And if you follow the thread we can find our way out and feel the joy of liberation. Be open to becoming more hopeful and letting hope be your guide.

– Deepak Chopra

Try to be a little more open to your sense of hope today and let good things find you. Don’t forget to let me know if you’ve been meditating!

Hope and love,

Colette xx

Fuzzy Feeling Friday

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Hello Lovelies,

It’s a glorious, July Friday and I feel like giving some gratitude. Today has not been particularly rewarding, or productive and that is usually cause enough for me to feel defeat. However, today I refuse. Today is a good day.

This morning started out grey and muggy with the ongoing heat we’ve been having in Bristol. And the amount of energy it took me to throw myself out of bed this morning made me feel a bit anxious. I willed myself to the bathroom to splash my face with water and get the day going. I laboured over how to dress myself and spent longer than I should have eating breakfast. Then just before dragging myself out of the house I thought LIPSTICK. A bright swipe of a wine-red shade was exactly what I needed to help me take on the day.

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I took my best bud Ceinwyn out for a walk, it was still a bit grey but the exercise made me feel a little more optimistic about the day. We ran and walked about until she was hot and tired, and then we settled into one of my local pubs, The Victoria Park. I cracked open my laptop, ordered some delicious chips and started working away. But I still wasn’t at 100%. Eventually, as I took a moment to look out the window I felt renewed -SUNSHINNNEEEE! Bright and beautiful golden rays streaming down everywhere, and I instantly felt better about everything.

Sometimes all we need to get through the day are a few good omens to throw our faith into. Today I’m grateful for my bright lippy and the sunshine making an appearance to uplift me.

What are you feeling grateful for today?

To perfect pecks and golden tans!

Colette xx

Fuzzy Feeling Friday

It might be the wee hours of Saturday once this hits the blog, but I refuse to change the title, or not admit this as a defeat of my one post a day self-inflicted challenge. So let’s all just move on…

Let me start by saying I love the idea of gratitude posts. Just like the common human being, I too am not always the happy go lucky person you may think me to be. But finding things to feel grateful about, or recognize as positive forces at play in your life, is a healthy and practical way to put a good spin on a bad week or even reinforce the wave of happiness that is currently washing over you.

Seeing as this is my first one, and my almost non-existent audience barely knows me, I thought I should introduce the two beings that bring me the most joy on a daily basis.

Rich and I

Hanging out at the Roman Baths in Bath Spa

Exhibit A: Rich

I have the most amazing human as a boyfriend. He might not be perfect, but he’s just perfect for me. He is my best friend and partner in crime. Everyday I feel blessed to wake up next to him, and he never fails to make me feel cherished and wholly loved each day. (I’m a lucky woman.) We endeavour to help each other reach our personal goals and always choose to dream together. Creating a home so far from where I grew up, where the majority of my life took place, is an easier and more fulfilling effort with him by my side. Ok, ok, I’ll stop gushing now. You get it: I really love my awesome boyfriend.

She’s so fluffy I wanna dieeeee!

Exhibit B: Ceinwyn a.k.a. Fluffy

The other being who I wake up to every morning is our gorgeous rough collie, Ceinwyn who takes her Welsh name from a Robin Hobb character (nerd points if you know which books she’s from). My beloved Fluffy is the sweetest, purest, nervous yet completely chilled out soul I have ever met. I love her intensely. She probably gets more kisses on a daily basis than the average dog and I am not even ashamed to admit that. I have never known companionship like hers before and I will forever be changed by it. Her current location is curled up beside me on the couch and sleeping, because that’s how her adorable little face likes to roll. While her fluff is a constant cleaning battle in our house, the joy and comfort her puppy cuddles bring are completely worth it.

Let me know what you have to be grateful for or happy about this week.

Do you write gratitude posts on you blog? Leave a link to yours below and I’ll check it out.

Thanks for reading!

Love,

Letty x